Hi SOUL Hi! Lovianhal!
How you? I’m glad you’re here. I’m here too! I love you.
I’ve been thinking a lot about the biblical wording—“So the last shall be first, and the first last: for many be called, but few chosen.”
I don’t often quote biblical text, but it does come up from time to time. I feel like in this particular point in history, this text is pointing to something important for us, as modern mystics, to ruminate on and be with…
I had an interesting vision this morning in meditation. For context, I have a client that was asking for a whole bunch of stuff via text before my eyes were fully open, my face washed and my teeth brushed. In media, it’s often this weird energy that revolves around hurry up! And wait!
An older version of me would have gotten right to work on what she was asking for and denied myself time with myself before I even got my day started. But something in me—that knee jerk reaction about other people’s desires being more important than my own—had shifted already during this prolonged time of actively mourning. Much of my old life has burned down metaphorically and presently I’m in the frequency of rebuilding my new life’s infrastructure. Which caused me to pause from the knee-jerk. I stopped instead. Sat in lotus position and closed my eyes.
I asked myself, “Where am I?”
It’s a question posed in a book I’m reading by Walter Starcke called The Third Appearance. “Where Am I” is a question, not about place or time. It’s a question about consciousness. So as I asked the question, and sat with my breath, I almost immediately saw a light and followed it above and through fields of clouds. Honestly, at this writing I don’t remember what was there in my mental picture, most of it is hard to describe anyway. Even my journaling about it felt vague to the lived experience.
But the part I do remember vividly is the part where there was this sort of lightbulb, but person shaped, attached to this “pipe” situation. “Pipe” is the best word because it was thick, hollow and metal-like, but not quite. As I looked at the “pipe”, the person-shaped bulb attached to this “pipe” hanging there like fruit or an ornament on a metal tree—-opened with a flash of light—the body fallen away like a chrysalis being shed, but cleaner.
And there it was. This inner nougat. A soul, perhaps. Also, person-shaped, but much smaller. Brighter. Like a small statue or figurine. I said, “Ah, that’s my Christ-self.” Or some such. I was looking at it, but not close enough to see any memorable details. Except—I realized,
“I”
was
looking
at
“it”.
“I” was not that which I was looking at—a relative bulb in some divine infrastructure. I am the observer, observing the person-bulb attached to the infrastructure, like a Christmas ornament.
So I got the answer of “where am I?” but at the time I didn’t get to the “okay, cool, so WHO am I then?” part yet.
Interesting right? I’ve asked these questions before, mind you—to varying results. But that’s another tale for another time.
Anyway, I prayed my day in, opened my eyes, journaled and got my morning started—and then went about my due diligence of answering my client’s texts. I prayed her in too. And then sent her an invoice for my time. There was no negotiation about it.
The older version of me would have done all the work first and then worried about being compensated after the fact, as to not be considered difficult. To get whatever I was asked done quickly, as to be considered efficient—you know what I’m saying? Without consideration for myself and my day and my time because I’m easy breezy. The old version of me would have considered my client’s needs over my own and my day would been about her “hurry up and wait” energy—versus what I had planned for my day. I nipped that in the bud today.
When I saw myself looking at even my “Christ” self-my spirit self, etc.—something in me clicked. I’m much more than the work I do for other people. I’m much more than the self connected to all there is that is considered my “self”. There is a sovereign part of me that is beyond this life and these things I’m attached to. There is even is even something about me that is more than the divine infrastructure I can see with my mind’s eye. I’m The Observer. Observing all of it. And maybe, there’s a part of me that is more than even The Observer self.
And maybe also, that’s why the text “the last shall be first and the first shall be last, many are called but few are chosen” has been so powerfully present in my awareness lately. We as a collective have been so meticulously focused on the known and the seen. The parts of us that are so deeply rooted in this world, that we’re missing a vital aspect of ourselves—our true power. We have been entrained to put The Observer self last. Most of us don’t even know we have it—are it—The ELECTRIC essence of who we are that isn’t physical enough to even be attached to anything we can even know. It’s truly sovereign.
And maybe, the chosen part of the calling is discover that self and then to lead with that self. To see, hear, feel and move with that self. Our true self. What a world this world would be, right?
Anyway, I do not claim to know what any of this means. It sounds profound, but I get a feeling it’s like basic ish in the scheme of things. With that in mind, we do have much to discuss tonight on TEMS as we cap up this month-long discussion about BEing ELECTRIC—Evolved Living, Elevates Consciousness, Turns Rhythm Into Community.
Tonight’s Starfolk University staff:
Kitakiya-Dean of Art, Artistry and Creative Expression
Dr. Kelly Wallace-Our newly minted Dean of Heart-full Insight + Joy-full Resistance
Eisha Mason-Dean of Radical Spiritual Connection
Sylvie Vaught–Dean of Goddess Studies
Meredith + Tavis- Dean of Indigenous Education
Daoud Mohteghi- Dean of Christian Mysticism + Counseling
Of course, Jordan is in the WuWu Metaphysical Studio with me, so Join us tonight 7-10p on WURD! Bring a journal, pen and 3 frens…
#starfolku #starpeopleish #comegetfree
“We must see ourselves as consciousness rather than form, we must get rid of the superstitious belief that there is a God apart from our own being, and we must recognize the divinity of our humanity. We must also develop the capacity to consciously double-think, and go beyond the duality of good and evil. When those conditions have been met we will witness the Third Appearance of God and realize that it is us—it is our individual selves and humanity as a whole.””
― Walter Starcke, The Third Appearance
You can listen live with this link and/or on the WURD App. We ARE Live on the FB Live OR Twitch too tonight!
Per usual, in EVERY single thing we do, the intention is transformation. And well moisturized legs.
Pssst! This month our #shiftprompt is:
The Art BEing ELECTRIC
Acronym:
Evolved
Living
Elevates
Consciousness
Turns
Rhythm
Into
Community
(The Second Coming is Electric…)
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The WuWu Metaphysical studio begins Friday night at 7p EST on WURD 96.1FM Philly + The FB LIVE (worldwide). See you then yes? Oh! Bring a joural, a pen and 3 frens! WuWu is best done together. 🙂 #comegetfree
Lovianhal,
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